Why do I live when I didn’t ask to be born?

This is an interesting question. A question I have asked myself at during the various highs and lows of my life, maybe not in these exact words but through some variation of it. A Goth enthusiast may answer “to die” without batting an eye, whereas an artist might say we live to enjoy the beautiful madness that we call “life” and a wide eyed little girl might reply with “how else will Prince Charming find me?” Then there’s us, the Y generation/ the echo boomers/ the call-us-what-you-wish generation, ask us why we live and most often than not you’ll hear something like this, “I live because I have to finish my studies, get a job, support my parents, build a life... Oh! And also to party and do the things I love”. How confusing and contradictory does that sound? Very, I hope.
When you hear this answer on repeat you’ll realize that we are indeed a lost generation. Lost because we’re torn between two worlds; the world indoctrinated in our minds as children about being a model citizen, getting good marks, finding a steady income earning job and most of all, making our parents proud. Then there’s the world fed to us by mainstream media which prattles on about how we can be anything we want to be, “do what you love, love what you do” they tell us, but can we really? An old timer might argue saying there’s nothing new here, everyone who has ever lived must have gone through these motions, but isn’t it now worse than ever? With so many opportunities being presented to us and the world buzzing with ideas and innovations there is an immeasurable amount of pressure on us to “be special”. When you’re reading this you’ll be living the last day of your life on this planet so far (calm down, no one’s dying), so stop and take a minute to see where the world is at in this instance, there is so much of life around us, approximately 7.4 billion lives worth, but why are YOU alive? If your mind is thinking along the lines of the opening paragraph of this article, you are not alone and thank you for proving my point.
How does one live with all these increasing imposed expectations? Most importantly WHY does one live with it? I believe the fault lies at the very core of this divided existence, meaning we’ve been taught never to question why both these worlds cannot co-exist. Most of us never stop to think why we can’t have the best of both worlds, we throw ourselves at the books from Kindergarten to University OR we throw our books away and rebel. Then there are the special ones who, through some miracle, have discovered the key that unlocks the mysteries of life. They are a rare breed and I have been fortunate enough to meet a few of these people. They are the ones who’ve struck the perfect balance between both worlds and they appear to be surreally content with life. Ask them why they live and they’ll tell you “I live to enjoy life”, WHAAAT? Is that even possible, I wondered, so I did the only thing my curios mind could do; ask around. According to some the key is to believe and embody the laws of attraction. To want something so strongly that you holler at the universe at every living, breathing moment about how much you want it and TADA! It’s yours! *ding ding* JACKPOT! Everyone goes home happy. This gives me the impression that if you think about owning your own private beach, where you party and sip fancy pina coladas all day long, for long enough it will become yours. If nothing else has worked for you then feel free to give this method a try. The happy-go-lucky types looked at me in shock and told me “chill the f*#k out dude! We live because...what else to do?” What else to do indeed. Nobody told you and nobody explained, you’re just shoved out, kicking and screaming into this human life without any idea why any of it feels the way it feels or why this confusion feels like it’s a hair’s breath away from absolute terror or exquisite pleasure, and yet we chose to wake up every day and go about our daily lives because we want to know what the new day brings, because we hope for better days. No one hands you the all-encompassing “life manual” and tells you this is how and why you should live, so the best way to save yourself from the depression that most philosophical pondering cause is to take a deep breath, stop the overthinking and simply live. Someone once said “stare, pry, listen, and eavesdrop, die knowing something because you are not here for long", so get out there and do what you think needs to be done to get the best out of your existence or do nothing at all and be a couch potato, to each his own is what I say.
So let me put my cynicism to rest with these parting words; I live because I was born (even though I had no choice in the matter) but I do more than merely exist because curiosity and hope get the better of me and let’s face it, the dreamer in each of us wants to, oh so badly, see what happens next.

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